Tuesday, December 13, 2005
Yet another senti poem... ano ba ang nangyayari sa kin???
I STILL LOVE YOU AND THAT IS ENOUGH
dedicated to rigel_09817
I lie on my bed
Staring at the ceiling
Waiting for sleep to claim me
Waiting for drowsiness to stay
But it seems that the only things that stays with me
Are memories, remembrances, thoughts of you
And bittersweetness fills my heart
As I remember everything I went through for you
And got nothing in return
Yet I still loved you.
I remember when I debated what to give you as a gift
Something that would let you know that someone loved you
Then when I thought of something
I did all I could to get what I needed for it
I struggled to finish the gift
I stayed up until the morning sun kissed the twilight sky
Working on a little something that I hoped could make you happy
Make you feel like there was someone out there who cared
I poured my love and hopes into that little gift
Not minding the pain, the tiredness, the sorrow
That filled me as I worked
My hands painstakingly built your gift with love
Wrapping it with care and warm caresses
And yet when I handed it to you with a smile on my face
You merely nodded and slipped it away
Where it lay, forgotten
And as it did, everything I hoped for, worked for
Was forgotten as well
The smile on my face was frozen
But deep within me the calm had shattered
Leaving only broken mirrors of silence in my mind
My peers asked me why I bothered to care for you
Why did I give my love, my hope, my care, my time
For someone who cared for me not
Why did I bother to love someone
Someone that everyone said was weird, worthless
I could not answer
Because deep inside
I was not sure of my answer
The only thing I knew
Was that when I was near him
I felt at home
Bittersweetly loved
But loved nonetheless
And for me
That was enough
So now sleep begins to claim me
And dreams start to tug at my mind
And I remember everything I went through for you
And got nothing in return
But bittersweetness no longer fills my heart
For I know that even though I get nothing from you
I still love you
And for me
That was enough.
~~ Eruanne
current music: Same Ground - Kitchie Nadal
I STILL LOVE YOU AND THAT IS ENOUGH
dedicated to rigel_09817
I lie on my bed
Staring at the ceiling
Waiting for sleep to claim me
Waiting for drowsiness to stay
But it seems that the only things that stays with me
Are memories, remembrances, thoughts of you
And bittersweetness fills my heart
As I remember everything I went through for you
And got nothing in return
Yet I still loved you.
I remember when I debated what to give you as a gift
Something that would let you know that someone loved you
Then when I thought of something
I did all I could to get what I needed for it
I struggled to finish the gift
I stayed up until the morning sun kissed the twilight sky
Working on a little something that I hoped could make you happy
Make you feel like there was someone out there who cared
I poured my love and hopes into that little gift
Not minding the pain, the tiredness, the sorrow
That filled me as I worked
My hands painstakingly built your gift with love
Wrapping it with care and warm caresses
And yet when I handed it to you with a smile on my face
You merely nodded and slipped it away
Where it lay, forgotten
And as it did, everything I hoped for, worked for
Was forgotten as well
The smile on my face was frozen
But deep within me the calm had shattered
Leaving only broken mirrors of silence in my mind
My peers asked me why I bothered to care for you
Why did I give my love, my hope, my care, my time
For someone who cared for me not
Why did I bother to love someone
Someone that everyone said was weird, worthless
I could not answer
Because deep inside
I was not sure of my answer
The only thing I knew
Was that when I was near him
I felt at home
Bittersweetly loved
But loved nonetheless
And for me
That was enough
So now sleep begins to claim me
And dreams start to tug at my mind
And I remember everything I went through for you
And got nothing in return
But bittersweetness no longer fills my heart
For I know that even though I get nothing from you
I still love you
And for me
That was enough.
~~ Eruanne
current mood: sentimental
current music: Same Ground - Kitchie Nadal
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